Well, Today is the day I was waiting for… If you’re reading this, Idk, if you are, just Read it. I saved it for this day and i just want to keep my promise, Let everything out and just Forget everything, i haven’t changed anything since then, I Hope you Have an Amazing Life c: Full with wonders okay.? Promise me that.
Well, Today is July 17, 2014… that’s the day i asked you to be my girlfriend 2 years ago, it was the best decision i ever made in my life.. I am really grateful, and Happy for everything, the things we have done, the laughs, tears we shared, those moments when we talk and then laugh, Those Silent moments that meant the universe and infinite words. These things are some of the various reasons i love being with you. I Remember Our First Date was kind of like a bummer so to say, like my friends cock-blocking us all the way, It was us, Cesar, Saul, Rodi, Jake, Valerie, Edgardo and Andre. I wanted to tell you how i felt about you, You made me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside like if i were on my home all happy. Our first kiss, you can’t even imagine the things that passed through my mind that day. i was thinking that we could make a relationship that works, that we would last, i even believe you had the same thoughts right.? (Since we are kind of alike <3 ). But when i Kissed you for the first time.. i felt something, like if it was something i knew before, like if i knew you all along, it was nice, amazing actually, I Loved it, i wanted more, i felt comfort, like if i was in my own home… I started to just have feelings for you, liking you, then loving you, i remember our 3rd month when it was your birthday, on October 10, i made you a sign saying “Happy B-day c:”, i spent hours on that, Just to look your face and it was worth everything to me, i really wanted to hug you all day long, also on that day i told you That “I Loved You” Those three words means everything to me, you were so red when i told you for the first time, i just wanted to pick you up and just man… i Found her.. i felt like i could tell you everything. i just trust you with my life. i could give you anything and trust you all the way to the end. i seriously, could give you anything. you have my outermost trust, i seriously haven’t trusted anyone like you before, and it feels amazing. my goal in life.. is to find that one person that makes me a better person and that reminds me of my mom.. because i would really like to live w. that other significant person for a VERY Long time.. Like the movie we on 4/20/2013 ( I still know the day x3, Oblivion, you know.? the dude just forgets his marrige with his wife.? if it were me, i would just prefer not living anymore, than being forced to forget you… because i can’t imagine my life without you.. you’re just everything to me and if that day comes, someday.. i would really love to have you in my Life, although everything’s tough nowadays. but.. i know we can make it through this because we are strong c: we can last long enough so that we can get a place for ourselves, that’s one of the many dreams i have, Living w. you and just being happy, Yeah bills may come, i don’t know if we would be economically tight because even the ppl who are “okay” have trouble, But just like i said, i believe we can go through just Anything c: And I Want to thank you for just Sustaining me and just loving me for all this time, I even thought of the surprise I was going to do this day months in advance x3
I just love you unconditionally. I Can’t even explain correctly of how i feel for you because it’s just too big to describe.
I Would be the Luckiest guy on Earth to just Share a Life w. You <3
Your Ever loving Boyfriend, That hopes one day being something else. Danny
Well I wrote that months before everything ended, and the reason I’m just posting this isn’t because i want you to feel uncomfortable, or sad, or anything really, it’s completely opposite, i want to apologize, and keep my promise, for once in my life keep one and fulfill it, to have closure and just not have any regrets.
I’m Sorry I was really insecure with and about everything, I was just so hurt by the things that happened in our relationship that I just became possessive and just utterly stupid sometimes, its isn’t your fault, because I could just locked the past away and just live on with my life, but i didnt, i was a complete jerk about everything and i dragged you down. I’m Sorry I Wasn’t able to complete all the promises I’ve said, but everything i’ve said i just Really wanted to do them, Every single one… I’m Sorry I Wasn’t able to make you happy, Being this jealous guy who just cant control himself and/or express himself. I’m sorry that i wasn’t great, that i couldn’t live up to your expectations, to your standards because you deserved way better. I’m Sorry that i changed. I’m Sorry that I Just made you more stressed instead of helping you.. The one person i ever cared a lot. I’m Sorry i couldn’t handle things, problems, or arguments, because i should have helped and maintained calm for the both of us so that we could flourish. I’m Sorry I’m just a complete loser who just ruins everything (this is me saying it to me.). I’m Sorry i didn’t take that chance you gave me… That golden opportunity and i was stupid enough to say no… I even believe it was the worst decision i ever did in my life. I was just hurt and my “orgullo” just kicked in the most stupid moment possible and just Fucked my mind over and i guess i have to live with that regret for the rest of my life huh.? I Really Love you like if i haven’t loved anyone in my life, I Still have the same feelings towards you since that day. I was so convinced that we could just live forever. You’re the type of girl that People just fantasize about, makes books about; write songs about, Dream about, things like that and i just threw us down the drain. If you just stumble upon this or someone told you then that’s great i guess.? All i wanted was safety. To feel at home again… not to feel alone anymore in this cruel world and yet… you just gave that to me, like if it were nothing, and i Kept it in my heart all this time but then took advantage of that, i really shouldn’t have done that. Sometimes i just can’t sleep… i think of things, i have things still; i wear my hat every single day. Just to keep those tiny fragments. These memories I’m going to keep. But you’re building this giant sculpture now with this new guy and i don’t want to break that neither be in that process, cuz that’s just rude. But yeah.. All i wanted to say is that i really hope you have the best relationship as possible, guide him, and let him guide you. I Hope he loves you like a queen, and you love him like a king. Stay healthy please.? .. Let no one tell you Bad stuff cuz of things that happen in your life, you’re special in every single way possible, Like the girl i saw in my school walking with skechers 3 years ago, Go the Farthest Lengths, Be free and just go. I Want to see you working at Bethesda c: in one of those credits rolling up. Please don’t let my dream die…
I just need a boy that has the same music taste that i have. That would sing and be weird with me and just have fun. So he won’t just be a lover to me but also a best friend. A guy who would play with my hair be all cute with me. A guy that would make an effort to be by my side. That would fight for us no matter what life throws at us… I guess that only exist in books.
They Don’t Exist In Books, you just haven’t found him yet c: